A Contractor’s Quiescent Fear

June 17th, 2013 17:22 by mary barlow

I have an unusual appointment set for 7:00 p.m. on Monday, September 30: The post reads, “Appointment With My Fear.”

Many people wonder how contractors work. Are contractors people out of jobs who are “working from home” once in a while or are they really productive? I’m not sure how most writers are faring these days, but since I started my consultancy in health care writing a few years ago, I haven’t had a vacation. Even when the company I was working with last winter shut down during the week of Christmas, I spent that time (except Christmas day) completing an assignment for another client.

Still, working as a full-time contractor carries a bit of fear. Sometimes you can’t see another project on the horizon beyond three weeks at a time. The trade-off is a wonderfully diverse array of assignments that together, broaden my understanding of the industry as a whole.

And the antsy jitterbug in my chest? I think the key to calming it is in managing it. I simply put my fear in a little box on my calendar — on a date scheduled a few months away. So far, every time my appointment with fear has come, I have been on deadline and too busy to meet with it. I just keep postponing it. My hope is that my fear will get fed up with being blown off so often and stop showing up altogether.

I'll let you know how it goes,